December 19, 2017. Over two months have passed since I quit my career in ad sales in Chicago. Two months since I purchased my first car. Two months since saying goodbye to all my family and friends in the Midwest and driving across the country to start this new chapter in Los Angeles. A lot has happened in those two months.
I wish I could say that I did not move across the country with certain expectations of what would happen or what life would be like, but I did. I had built up this idea of what my Los Angeles like would look like. Who it would include. Who it wouldn’t. I very quickly learned that life does not necessarily go according to plan. In fact, sometimes life has a funny way of taking every expectation that you hold and completely throwing them out the window.
My first few weeks here were difficult. Doubt. Fear. Loneliness. These were all things that now so sneakily creep up on my psyche and made me second guess every decision I had made. It was at that point that I knew I needed to make a change in my outlook. Sure, things were not going how I anticipated, but I began forcing myself to see that as a positive. An opportunity. A chance to push myself and find beauty in the unknown.
Within one week of landing in Los Angeles I had landed a job. Influencer marketing. Within another three days I have found my first apartment. Slowly but surely I began making friends. Meeting new people. Allowing myself to walk alone, talk to strangers in cafes. These were simple acts that I don’t think I would have allowed myself to make while living in Chicago. But in LA? This was a new life. A new chapter. A new opportunity to make a life and career that I am proud of.
Here are a few things that I have learned in the few shorts months that I have lived on the West Coast:
1. The weather is incredible. Last night I went on a date and sat outside. In the middle of December. It was lovely and I am not too thrilled to be going back to the frigid temperatures of Chicago in a few days.
2. Los Angeles can feel isolating. This was the main factor that I have to fight to resist. I wanted nothing less than to find myself alone and unhappy in this new city.
3. Being nervous and scared in the face of adversity is a terrifying yet truly amazing feeling. It is in these moments that I have been able to understand that this is exactly where I am meant to be. A little uncomfortable. A little more confident than yesterday. A lot more excited about what the future has to hold.
4. Traffic is bad. Not horrendous, but not enjoyable. I’ve learned to surrender to it. Spotify and podcasts have become my friends.
5. Everyone in LA is under the assumption that ‘avocado toast’ is only a “LA Thing.” I hate to break it to you, but it exists elsewhere as well.
6. Life is busy. Milk & Eggs has become a wonderful resource when energy is low, work hours are long, and I just can’t quite get myself to the grocery store.
This past weekend I knew that my work holiday party of Friday evening would leave Saturday unproductive to say the least. However, a quick look in my refrigerator painted the picture of a hunger-filled rage. Almond milk and kombucha would not quite satiate my Saturday morning hungries. With that in mind, I placed an order on Milk & Eggs to be delivered early in the morning, before I even woke and had my first cup of coffee. A cup or two later and I was sitting at my dining table, jazz quietly playing in the background, windows open, enjoying a smoke salmon avocado toast.
Los Angeles, thank you for making me slightly uncomfortable. Thank you for showing what I am capable of. Thank you for allowing me to be truly happy.
Milk & Eggs, thank you for the food! :)